Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Raw Bodies

[description: portrait of a nude man's lap, legs crossed and penis erect]

I like to create beautiful art, because one of my goals as an erotic artist is to prove that you can take pictures of naked bodies and sex acts in a way that is tasteful, and aesthetically appealing, by adhering to the classical rules of composition, and by striving to flatter the subject even in what are sometimes considered unflattering poses and situations. I try to avoid vulgarity partly because it simply doesn't appeal to me, and also because it tends to undermine this goal. That having been said, I'm not going to say that I will never (and have never) produced vulgar works, because I don't like to limit myself as an artist, and you have to push yourself to see where the lines - yours as well as those of society - will be drawn. And I've found that, on occasion, there is a certain draw to a raw, naked body, just lying there, unselfconsciously exposed, that is probably primal in nature. What do you think? Do you occasionally have the urge to just get down and dirty?

[description: similar portrait as above, this time with legs spread]

Monday, June 13, 2016

Clone Mischief

[description: a naked man stands, erection in hand, in front of another seated in a chair]

I would absolutely love to do some sexually explicit photoshoots. Not for the obvious reasons that GWCs tend to have - a pseudo-legitimate excuse to get girls to take their clothes off. If all I wanted was to see a naked girl, I could just look on the internet (which I do pretty much daily - for research purposes :p). What I want is an opportunity to create something beautiful. You know how serious I am about art. I want to apply my approach towards erotic art to sexually explicit encounters, to see what kind of beautiful, erotic portraits and bodyscapes I can create. To prove my claim that human sexuality can be depicted tastefully, and beautifully.

But there's a limit to what I can do with just one model. (And it's harder when that model's yourself). Not to disparage solo sexual acts - I consider masturbation to be sex as much as anything else (it's the safest form of sex, and one of the most important sexual skills a person can learn). But there's a limit to what one person can do with his own body (in terms of simple mathematics, the more bodies you have, the more combinations are possible -_^), and there's an added thrill when sex involves other people.

I've been using clones to play around with that idea, but it can only take me so far. Without contact, there's a wall I keep running up against. Exhibitionism is hot, but how many times can I depict one person watching another masturbate, or two people masturbating in front of each other, or three people masturbating themselves to the sight of a fourth, before it gets boring?

Okay, well, maybe it'll never get boring, but I'd still like to do more. But, with all the stigma out there about pornography and sexual expression, coupled with my extraordinary inability to cultivate a social network, it's just about impossible for me to find an attractive, photogenic subject willing to have sex on camera for anything other than private purposes, no matter how genuine my artistic intentions might be. So, I'm pretty much screwed. (And not in the fun way).

Thursday, June 9, 2016

The Trouble With Thongs

[description: rear view of a man's torso in thong underwear, with insufficient containment]

The trouble with thongs - or, more accurately, the trouble with men wearing women's thongs - is that they don't hold your "stuff" in place. Now, you could argue that this is a bonus - and, hey, it might be sexy - but the situations where this sort of arrangement is practical are exceedingly rare. My perspective is that if there's no problem with your stuff hanging out, then why are you wearing a thong in the first place? You might as well go full monty!

Chances are, if you're wearing a thong, it's because you want a sexy pair of underwear that nevertheless keeps you "legal" and contained. Maybe it's to go under a skirt and contribute to the feeling of being as bare as possible, while still being dressed. Maybe it's to go under a dress and reduce visible panty lines. In any case, it's helpful to keep the equipment in line, and from swinging about freely, while also reducing the embarrassing need to constantly adjust yourself in public.

All of these are reasons why women's thongs are just not practical for men. But that's not to say that there are no good reasons for wearing them. While there do exist thongs for men that are designed for better containment, they are not always an ideal solution. For one thing, they tend to be far more difficult to find in stores, compared to the women's variety. And the ones you do find are almost exclusively designed with men's "tastes" in mind. Sure, you can find men's thongs in leopard prints and whatnot, but those are just generically sexy. Good luck finding a pink one with a heart print.

The truth is, for those of us men who like thongs because they are more feminine, it can be practically impossible to find a style designed for men, but with pretty, feminine colors and patterns. Also, since men have more to contain, it's harder to find the skimpier (and, thus - in the opinions of some - sexier) styles of thongs - t-backs, g-strings, and the like. All of these things may be available at niche boutique stores that can be found online (carrying a multitude of erotic inventory), but they can tend to cost you a lot of money (especially when factoring in shipping), and lack the convenience of simply being able to pick some up while you're at the store.

None of these obstacles, however, should stop you from seeking out and wearing thongs - whether they are designed for men or women, bought at the store or online - if you happen to like wearing thongs, or are curious and have yet to try one out. Certainly, thongs can be an acquired taste for some, and they do unfortunately carry a certain level of stigma (but don't let anyone make you feel bad about yourself just because you want to look or feel sexy!). Some people think they are extremely uncomfortable, while others find them the most comfortable kind of underwear in existence - it's just a matter of taste. Don't be afraid to discover your own. :-)

Monday, June 6, 2016

Can Gender Identity Determine Sexual Orientation?

Short answer: No.
Long answer: One may influence the other in some cases, but not in a deterministic way that would enable accurate prediction. Read on - the following is basically my thoughts on the hypothetical situation where, upon learning that someone is "trans", a person might assume they can deduce that person's sexual orientation. Or, in other words, the "only gay men wear dresses" fallacy.

It is obvious to me (more so than it apparently is to some others) that sex and gender are two very different things (and that orientation is something else altogether). One of them has more to do with your anatomy and physiology, and the other has more to do with your psychology and personality. That there are two obvious sexes and two obvious genders (at least - gender is a far more nebulous concept than sex), and that the majority of the population goes through life never seriously questioning the traditional pairing of these (i.e., men are masculine, and women are feminine), explains why those who experience life otherwise are a commonly misunderstood (or downright ignored) minority. But it doesn't diminish the value of their experiences, the legitimacy of their identity, or their claim to the same rights and freedoms the rest of us have.

Now, I wouldn't go so far as to say that sexual orientation and gender identity are completely independent of one another. I believe they can have strong influences on each other. But the fact is that different people ultimately come to different conclusions (about what gender they identify with, and what "sex" they are attracted to), and the determination of one isn't enough to predict the other. Just as some males can be masculine and others can be feminine (and some females can be feminine while others are masculine), a person who identifies as the male gender may be attracted to either males or females (or both, or something else altogether), and the same can be said of a person who identifies as the female gender. The antiquated notion that if a man identifies as female, for example, he must be sexually attracted to men, is blatantly heteronormative - denying the existence of females who are attracted to other females - and gender normative - assuming that no "red-blooded" male who is attracted to females could have stereotypically feminine interests.

I can't, personally, say that my sexual orientation hasn't influenced my gender identity, in the sense that I am fascinated by females so much, I began to think I'd enjoy being one; and after experimenting, discovered that it fit me so much better than a male identity ever has. In a different case, a person with a sexual attraction to males (who, as a male, would be labeled "gay"), might begin to identify more with females from something of a vaguely heteronormative (which is NOT to say homophobic) perspective, in the sense of wanting to be the "female" to a male's desire. To be true, this is not how all (or probably even most) gay men feel. And the sex (or sexes) that one is attracted to does not necessarily impact the gender they identify with - they are two different feelings, two different "senses". But it's just one of a variety of fabulous possibilities.

Which is why I can't say that sexual orientation and gender identity are completely independent of one another, in all cases. But at the same time, it should be kept in mind that they are not determinant predictors of one another, either. In logical terms, if A may influence B or C, then it could be said that there is a connection between them, but knowing that something is A is not sufficient to predict whether it will align with B or C - as both possibilities exist. You cannot look at a woman and know with a glance whether she is straight or lesbian (or something else). It is no less true that you cannot look at a man wearing a dress and know instantly who or what he is sexually attracted to.

Friday, June 3, 2016

Nude Camping

[description: front and back portraits of a nudist carrying a camp chair and volleyball]

So I went nude camping the other weekend. Played a little volleyball. Got some sun (but not too much). Being out of the lifestyle for several months (over the winter), it's always an interesting experience coming back. By now (this being my seventh year in the social scene), it's all very familiar to me, but there are still some things that one tends to look at in different ways as one's mindset changes. Having read much discussion online about one of organized nudism's biggest challenges - drawing a younger audience to replace the aging nudist population (I have to be honest, I consider the fact that most kids raised in nudism abandon the lifestyle in their teens to be a critical failure of nudism) - it was interesting for me to consider just how little the typical nudist camp experience (at least as I've known it) appeals to a stereotypical younger demographic. I mean, even the whole "drinking and partying late into the night" thing which all the aging attendees love to do (contrary to anyone who might think otherwise) seems less appealing when you're in a clubhouse with old and sagging bodies, instead of a nightclub filled with hot, young, nubile flesh.

I hate to be superficial - I really do. One of the amazing things about nudism is that you learn to judge people based on their personality, and not their looks. Somebody with a nice body could be a total a-hole, while someone else with a decidedly less "aesthetic" figure could be a total sweetheart. And seeing what happens to everybody's bodies as we grow older puts things into perspective. One of nudism's enduring and most redeeming features is its support of body acceptance. At the same time, I've never considered this position incompatible with the truth that beauty (even just pure, raw, physical beauty) is a virtue in and of itself, deserving of admiration. And one of the tenets of nudism that I regret to see has gone somewhat by the wayside these days is the emphasis on fitness.

I'm an all-inclusive kind of person, and if you want to drink and smoke and get piercings and tattoos and sit on your ass and grill steaks on the barbie, then have at it. It's [nominally] a free country, and if that's what makes you happy, then by all means, don't let me get in the way of your happiness. At the same time, I wouldn't mind seeing those of us who do appreciate physical fitness (both as participants and as spectators) having more opportunities and being given more leeway to indulge those interests. I know, there's a whole judgment culture that goes along with that that tends to be damaging to a body acceptance perspective. I'm not saying there aren't pitfalls to navigate. But I think they're worth navigating, instead of just picking a side. Like how I've explained my perspective on beauty pageants (a mostly outdated tradition in modern nudism - at least of the American variety). The competition aspect is perhaps not all that positive (although it still seems to be accepted in terms of athletic demonstrations, for better or worse), but I don't see what's the harm in continuing to celebrate, if in a more egalitarian manner.

Anyway, another one of my enduring regrets about the organized nudist scene is the total fear of cameras. It's a justified fear, to be sure, but it's still one I think we'd be better off overcoming. To be realistic, I don't see that happening anytime soon (although a nudist revolution - perhaps sparked by a younger demographic attached to their mobile devices, if it weren't so nonexistent - could introduce drastic and unforeseen changes). But I'm dedicated to it enough not to give up on it. To me, the risk of some stranger taking my picture is smaller than the gains I could receive from being able to photograph the nudist lifestyle. Granted, I'm in a somewhat unique position in that I don't have a reputation that needs to be protected (there are already naked pictures of me on the internet - put there deliberately by none other than myself; and I have nothing to lose by anyone learning that I am a nudist - indeed, I do not make that fact a secret), and that I happen to be a photographic artist (with the interest and the talent to create beautiful works of art on the subject of nudism, and not simply snapshots of naked people to share with my friends and laugh at/jerk off to, as the case of your worst nightmare might be - although, notice how neither of those contingencies are exactly end-of-the-world scenarios).

I've spent a lot of time thinking about a way to get around this obstacle - of wanting to shoot a subject that doesn't like to be shot at - but it's a thorny problem with no clear solution, especially to one such as me who has a hard time in the "social networking" game, and is also just liberated enough to make most people uncomfortable. That's all I can say for now, as it's an open case. Suffice to say, I'd love to take action shots of myself or others (but I could settle for myself) engaged in interesting physical activities like playing volleyball out in the sunshine, but until I can work out a solution to this problem, you'll have to settle for something decidedly less genuine. Just...use your imagination.

[description: portraits at different angles of a nudist simulating hitting a volleyball]

Thursday, June 2, 2016

Try This On For Size (Frustrations)

Come join me once again in the fitting room. It's easy! All you have to do is grab a few things off the racks, take them to the fitting room, and then get naked!

[description: fitting room selfies in casual clothes, and naked]

Okay, you'll probably want to keep your underwear on while trying on clothes. But don't let that stop you from stripping nude just to take a few pictures! Because how often do you get to do that while you're out shopping?

Now, let's try on some clothes!

[description: fitting room selfies from front and back, in a light pink dress]

This pink dress was just adorable, but, unfortunately - and not for the last time this day - it was kind of a little, shall we say, "transparent". It's too bad, because the lacy strip through the middle that shows off a little skin is super flirty. Now, if you ask me, wearing a dress that practically amounts to a "second skin" is kind of sexy in and of itself, but I really don't think those high-definition nipples and obvious bulge would go over very well among the general population, especially when I'm trying to go incognito. (I'd prefer not to have to go incognito, and just have everybody accept me as a beautiful man in a dress, without trying to pass as a girl, but society doesn't work that way...yet).

[description: fitting room selfie in an open black robe, naked underneath]

This thing here was something between a black dress, a trench coat, and a one-piece suit. I thought it might be an interesting and more feminine alternative (for formal occasions) to a women's-cut business suit, but the fact that I was more interested in what was underneath it doesn't bode well. In fairness, though, black outfits really don't photograph well in this light. (It's a good thing I'm so pale!).

[description: fitting room selfie in a thin, jade green dress]

Oh my god, this shirt-dress thing was so soft and comfortable! I could totally see myself lounging around in it like a pair of pajamas. Unfortunately, though, like the pink dress above, it leaves nothing to the imagination. I have very little "body dysphoria" directed at my genitals (they serve their purpose -_^), but if ever I've hated having a penis, it's when I'm trying on clothes designed for vagina-bearers. I loved this piece to death, but it just didn't make sense for me to buy it, because 1) I could never really wear it out, and I'm getting sick of filling my closet with beautiful things I can never actually wear (it's getting depressing), and 2) I would probably never wear it as pajamas or "just around the house" because - let's be honest, if I'm in a setting where I don't have to hide my penis, I'm not going to be wearing anything. So that's that. :-\

[description: fitting room selfies from front and side, in a frilly strapless coral prom dress]

I'm still looking for that elusive perfect prom dress. Add this one to the long list of ones that just don't fit me. A shame, because I loved this one - the cut, the style, and my god, the color! It was more of a reddish orange (coral, really) than the pink it looks like in this picture, but regardless, it was beautiful. But I couldn't even zip it up all the way. By far, the number one issue I have with fancy dresses like this is that they don't fit around my [apparently] massive rib cage. Not that I don't have a thin enough waist, or wide enough hips, or even a chest that's too flat (although that one is often a problem, depending on the cut of the dress). No. It's my stupid ribs. Or in some cases, my wide shoulders. I swear to god, somebody needs to start a clothing line designed for men who like ultra-feminine, girly dresses and other clothing (including shoes! - my god, it's impossible to find cute shoes in my size; all the size twelves tend to be super-tacky - like, why? just because I have big feet doesn't mean they aren't cute!). A niche audience, perhaps, but one that's under-represented! Hell, I'd even volunteer to be the spokesmodel!

Anyway. Here are a couple more nudes - because, why not? Life can always be improved by a few more nude selfies. Don't forget to share!

[description: nude fitting room selfies]

See you next time!

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

Outfit of the Day (#ootd)

[description: car selfie wearing a short pink minidress]

This little pink "pool slip" is one of my favorite things to wear when I'm headed out to a nudist resort, because it's so simple and skimpy (I like it so much, I own two!). It's just one piece - easy to slip on and off (yet the tie at the top helps keep it in place so it's not constantly slipping down, seeing as I don't have breasts to help hold it up with) - and it doesn't cover very much (short of baring my midriff - it's about as skimpy as a one piece slip can get), but keeps me "legal" for things like stores and restaurants (which a simple pair of shorts, or a skimpy swimsuit, might not do). Plus, it's always fun to wear really short skirts with thongs underneath, for a more "naked" feeling. (I'd go commando if it weren't for the fact that I need to put my "equipment" in a tool box - sadly, society is not yet ready for a dong flopping about underneath a skirt - the bulge is enough for me to worry about as it is). It's cute, and flirty, and represents the best of what summer is all about - showing off skin!